Hmm... I'm sorry guys. Its been so so long since I last put up an artwork.

Been out of sorts lately. sorry..

Hmm.. will be getting a new computer screen tonight.. and at a good price too. Getting it first hand at a very very very good price.

$160.. 15 inch LCD screen (nothing to be proud of here.. but still,.. its a screen!) and the brand I'm not sure of yet.. the screen is from my friend who is selling me.. and he tells me its a good brand. I trust him. hehe..
For the past 5 ~ 7 months.. been suffering with a screen that has its Red colour filament damaged. Not that bad, but the Red on my screen is showing red streaks.. and some of my images will have a red glow about the edges. I hate it.. time to change the screen.

Just gotten my NS pay just yesterday,.. and I have only $40 in hand for me to spend on... anything! Haha.
Here's the lay down on my spendings for this month..



* Pay for NS Fulltime Private, after one Year in service :- $365~ *
Spending on this month :-

- Computer Screen 15 inch LCD -- $160
- Bus Fare Consession for NSF -- $60
- Starhub Internet Bill -- $56
- Previous Hand Phone Bill -- about $40~ or lesser
- Payment to SAF
(Lost tools) -- about $7~

So, total spending:- about $320~
* Balance:- $40 *

Hmm.. me an my Dad, we have an agreement that he pays for my HP bill (for now.. until I really start working..) as long as I do not exceed the the target of $40/month... and last month, my bill was about $70~. Split the payment with last month's and this month's pay.. hahaha.. I'm so poor now.. hehe

Sad man,.. that's what I'm holding in hand now.. haizz..
Wait till I start spending on my food for the month. hehe.. suffer I tell you.

Well,.. the past few days been one hell of a confusing ride.
Met this girl about a few weeks back (..but had been waiting for her for 2 years.. now I feel stupid..). Been going on strong from the past few weeks until that one day only me and her know. I know what I did was wrong and wish to not repeat it.. and I want to atone for the mistake I did.. but well,.. I guess she has distanced herself from me.. lately for the past week. I just feel that It's now best I move along.. and not look back.

After 2 years of waiting.. this is the result?.. or is she just unsure of what to do,.. or she just needs the time?
Haizz.. ever since that day,.. she just changed and.. I stood around like an Idiot.. waiting for a reply. We do chat on MSN once in awhile.. and well,.. no more calls and no more SMSes. If we do SMS,.. it'll end up with her saying she's busy or with her family or she's outside. Not that I'm not allowing her her peace.. its just that... we rarely chat and talk now. We never meet after school or work like before. I guess she has lost her feelings for me..... and ever since yesterday.. after reading her blog of her previous entries,.. I realise.. she has lost her feelings for me and I MUST move on now... 'cause she is moving on.

You know who you are, if you are reading this article/journal.. but I now doubt you're reading it now or ever. NO matter... not going to bother anymore. I just hope you move on to a better life now.. and I just am sorry for what I did and if it hurt your feelings.

Singledom here I come again.
Embrace it I shall, Love it I will.. and Live by it... of course.. been doing that for the past few years.

Hmm,.... what I just realised is that... my relationship with her is just Lust and not Love..

Love and Lust,.. they're never the same.. and I want Love.. not and never Lust.. haizz...

Oh well,.. peeps.. see ya around.. and with the new computer screen,.. hope I will have new works up soon.. very soon.. haha..

Bye for now!